Friday, 01 July 2011
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The Hero and the Madman!
Woke upthe next morning, and the sign on the bathroom mirror written in blood redlipstick said-“YOU’RE DOING IT WRONG”
So I know you hate it when I express any selfdoubt. I’m supposed to be the strong one, but I’m not Scott Summers! So muchhas happened in the last month, but I’m still just a little baby, I don’t knowif I am good enough. I think sometimes that if it were meant to be it wouldhave already happened, that if I was to become this great man that I would havealready become him. I compare myself to all of these famous no talent hack thatgot there before I did and I know when I do it I do a disservice to myself. I knowthat I simply don’t work hard enough, and you know it too. I could do more, butI don’t I choke like Lebron and I fail miserably it’s my Achilles heel. I amgiven opportunity after opportunity and I just squander it! What did I dotoday? Nothing! I watched bullshit online and ignored my destiny as I alwaysdo, I’m sorry I let you down, but it’s kinda what I do. I want to do more butsomething inside me holds me back. I just don’t know if I’m good enough, whenyou peel back the shell of bravado this is who I am a frail little man. That’swhy I identify with the Hulk so much. Inside he’s just meek little BruceBanner! I can’t help it, or I won’t in your eyes, I know, I know. I wrote a newstory today; it’s all about this guy who is a lot like me and what he becomesafter the Big One hits Cali. It’s an existential Mad Max. Not even sure whatmedium it’s set for; comics, movies, TV? Trying to piece that together, but Iguess I should finish it first. Listening to Thin Lizzy all day and drinkingthis cheap as balls rot gut whiskey isn’t helping. I’m on the verge of tearsand about to watch Chasing Amy which is probably a bad idea. I know its Fridaynight in L.A. I should be out meeting people and doing things, but I’mparalyzed by fear and incapable of being that guy right now. Besides only armaturescelebrate the weekend or Holidays, we true alkies stay crunk 24/7!
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